I love God with all my heart. Last night I tried to talk to my boyfriend about God but he just wanted to be intamate with me. I was raised in a good christian home with great christian parents, but my boyfriend just wants to be intamate with me. It`s hard to resist when you`re just a 13 year old girl that just got her period and all of her friends are already having oral sex. My friends think that oral sex is not a sin. I`m not sure what to think about that. I mean, come on! I`m not sure what to do. Is masturbation a sin? I think that masturbating is all I have to keep me from being intamate with my boyfriend. He tells me that he loves me and he wants to prove it to me and I want to believe him, but I`m scared. He`ll be my first and I`m nervous about my first time. Is there anything I need to do to take care of myself? I mean, I would hate for him to go down on me and not like the taste. My friend doushes (sp?) She says that it`s not a big deal and that I should "take care of myself" if I want "Bryan" to go down on me.

Is it wrong to think of having my "first time" with an older man? I just think that it`s important to have a man that knows what he`s doing the first time. My friend Christy, 13, says that her boyfriend Jason, also 13, wasn`t as "pleasing" or as enjoyable as she wanted her first time to be. I want my first time to be romantic. I love my boyfriend, but I`m worried about his maturity. I want to believe that he loves me, but I sometimes think that he just wants to pop my cherry. I think that your first time should be special. My friend Nicole is so lucky. Robert, 21, is so mature and so cool. He buys her pink dolls and pencils to show that he loves her. I`m so jelous! He`s so cute and so fine! And he really loves her. I want a man like that!

So, I`m not sure what to do. I love him, and I want him to love me just as much, but I`m scared.

Please help. I want to be good...